Now, let me explain...

OK, I think it's time for me to explain what's been going on for the last few weeks, and why we were considering moving to LA.

We're getting kicked out of our apartment. We lived in this apartment for five and a half years! A new management company bought our building, and they want us out, or we'll have to pay $2,800/month. Well, obviously we're not going to do that, so we have to move.

The last few weeks have been a major roller coster ride. Our situation can literally change by the hour! We have to get out of our apartment by April 1st. May seem far away to you now, but while we're producing our show, this is a major distraction. We were not sure for WEEKS whether we had to leave right away or until April. We've looked at many apartments in Mahattan. We've come so close to getting a new place, only to be disappointed in the end. This has been a long and painful process.

So, while trying to find a place to live, I've been working at my day job, and trying to plan Episode 3 of Retributioners. It's been VERY tough to do.

We've been back and forth on the LA issue over and over again. At this point in time, I think we've decided to stay in NY, with the possibility of considering LA in the future.

So, there you have it!!! I'm really scared I won't have Episode 3 ready when I want....so I ask for your patience! We're trying!

Tom Cruise Crazy!

Since the days of my crazy indecisions are coming to a close with the whole LA saga (more on that later), I thought I would send a tribute to all the crazies in the world.

Last night, I had a dream about Tom Cruise and Scientology. Which made me research him tonight and I came across this song/video. Love it!!!

ah, the LA thing

Let me continue on this topic, as there was a lot I didn't explain. There are some things I can't get into detail about here, as they have to do with our current living situation. However, let me tell you this:

Over a year ago I went on a program where I stayed in LA for a week, met a ton of casting directors and agents, and made a whole bunch of actor friends who were all considering the move to LA. It was like an LA audition bootcamp, and we learned a lot about making a career in LA. Since that time, more than half of those friends made the move. I stay in close contact with a lot of them.

After that trip, I knew I wanted to be there! I came home ready to pack and move! Eric was not thrilled at all at the idea, being that living in NY was HIS dream. Instead of making the move right away, we decided to do things here in NY to PREPARE for an LA move. Eric was on board.

I wanted to build my film resume, and be eligible for SAG. Well, I did it! But THEN, The Retributioners happened! It was an idea that came out of nowhere, and we both had to produce this thing. Since July, all I've been doing is concentrating on making the webseries a reality.

Well, we did it! But ALL of my concentration these past few months has been on this show. I haven't even gone on any auditions in a long time. As a result, I haven't even been thinking about LA.....I guess I thought we'd think about it when the time comes.

The time came! We are now forced to think about it right now, because our apartment building was bought by a new landlord. And without going into the details, we need to THINK about it right now! Neither one of us was ready to think about it now, because we were both so absorbed in the show.

Yesterday, we decided to stay in NY. My gut feelings on the topic change from one minute to the next. If we don't leave now, we probably never will. If we do leave, all I have is a good network of friends out there. That's about it.

I REALLY don't want to move in the middle of making Retributioners.

Sorry this is so long. Thank you all for the kind words, advice, personal stories....in the end, this is not a life or death situation, just a confusing and draining situation concerning our careers.

steph

LA or no LA

As we're quickly getting ready to shoot episode 3, I'm having to think about my future. OUR future, actually. Over a year ago, I was gung ho about moving to LA We didn't make the move, but I am having to think about it again under our current circumstances. I have no idea what to do.

I really hate being indecisive, but I'm afraid that's one of my flaws. Especially when it comes to life-changing decisions like this one. I almost want fate to decide...which is so silly. You all know me by now, I pretty much make my own way and my own destiny. I'm a strong person.

But I'm faced having to make a choice. LA or NY. I think the truth is I'm scared. I'm really scared to make a choice. How will I know I am making the right choice? I hate feeling like no matter what I choose, I will be sacrificing something. That is what I am up against right now.

Over the last six months, I got consumed with work, and with the webseries. I didn't have to think about this, because I really couldn't. But now I do.

Anyway, that's what's on my mind right now. As a result, I'm getting nothing done.